Do you ever have a time where reality kinda hits and you just want to freak out? That’s kinda where I’m at. Its so easy to talk about the future when its kind of far off, but when all the things you had talked about happening in the future actually starts occuring, its pretty stinkin’ scary! As many of you know, going to Africa was not in my original plans, but God opened that door…and I jumped. So in preparation for that trip, I decided it would probably be best to sell my house (my parents live in florida), my car, and some other things like that so I would not have to worry about finances and other things while I was gone and I could come back and have more flexibilty to decide whats next. Talking about those things as a step way down the road was pretty easy. BUT yesterday, I sold my house. Yes, it is extremely exciting because its less stress, but at the same time I am very anxious about it. I’m anxious because its not easy letting go of everything you know. Everything you know that is comfortable. Everything you know to be “home.” Its one step closer to me being in Africa. Its one step closer to me letting go of my comfort and moving to the next stage in my life. Its scary and exciting all in the same breathe. I had to tell myself “Aaryn, just breathe!” It is a very intersting feeling knowing that as each day goes by this summer, I am getting closer to changing a lot about my life. I’m finding that I want to start worrying about what’s next after Africa and figure out my plan for attack, but I keep being reminded to not worry about tomorrow. God knows. He is preparing me and the situations in my life in order to take me to the next level and the next phase in my journey. It’s just not easy letting go. So this week, I’m praying to just let go. To take these changes in my life and run with them. To get excited that the Lord is taking care of all the “stuff” in order for me to just be able to GO! That is really cool and I’m very blessed. Just got to fight the human nature sometimes. Ok, now that I’m breathing…I’m getting really excited:)
Other news, I had a conference call with some of the people of my team this past wednesday. It was so awesome, and just hearing them talk about Jeffreys Bay was just incredible. I know its exactly where I’m supposed to be. Its the coolest thing ever. Support is going well. Its still coming in and I know that it’ll be exactly what I need.
Keep praying for my team and all the Africa FYM’s as we are still raising support and preparing ourselves to go. I know that it can be a struggle to buckle down and get ready. Pray that each of us will see God move in the small things as we are getting ready to head to South Africa! Have a wonderful week! Be Blessed!
